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romans 12:2

ever pressed the enter key to go down a line but accidentally posted a blog?
yeah. that just happened to me AGAIN D:

as shapiro used to say,
yeah,
well,
anyway.


so i've been hearing this verse a lot. so ive heard its interpreted oddly. well anyway ^^ i studied it myself for a while and ive found a couple things


Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, pretty self-explanatory verse i'd say. dont be pressured to do ungodly things.


but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. i think this is the verse that goes up n' over peoples heads. the part i had concentrated on was transformed. the root word of transformed is metamorphose. and i bet the first thing you thought of was a butterfly. and that should be what you you're thinking, i think. and it makes sense, there are stages to metamorphosis the larvae, cocoon and the butterfly last. and we see the butterfly as the pinnacle of perfection, the mirror image of God's righteousness, what everyone should be striving after. the middle stage, the cocoon is the stage of constant conflict. its not an easy to path to godliness. it doesnt just happen in a second and nothing comes without effort.

about renewing. 10 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. lol nuff said. this is from psalms 51:10 (David is saying this btw)

Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. what i think this means is that if we are not anywhere close to God's likeness how could we possibly understand anything that he does or wants us to do? its like if you dont know anything about someone how could you possibly understand anything they do. if you have a relationship with God, good or bad, you're still technically connected by the Spirit. even if you severed the link, God is still in your head. this link is really really special and unqiue. i could say its our source of life and sanity. yeah, didnt really get this bit so thats why its kinda scrambled like eggs ^^ im probably wrong sooo. ENLIGHTEN ME PLEEEASE :D


odd feeling. as i type this up i cant help but smile. being away from God feels horrible even if its involuntary. but as they say you can never cherish something until its been taken away. and thats what im feeling right now, so uplifted! so free! (note the exclamation marks) i remember the psalm david wrote, how he meditated on the Lord's word day and night. and that made him content. what a wonderful thing. just doing something personal for God is such a wonderful thing. not just for God but for yourself. i'd wager that its good for your health.

and i pray that we may be patient and weather the changes and hardships that it takes to become a better person and a better christian, someone who loves you endlessly. That we may be grateful for your abounding grace and love and your guidance. Father i pray that we may just let our minds stop and settle down and let you do your work and let your Spirit run through us, renew us, influence our everyday actions.
in your name
Amen <--- my generic prayer for the next couple days (:

spiritual rest.

gaah, crazy week this week,

monday : i forgot
tuesday: sci test, sci lab due in,
wednesday: geography test, phys ed rules quiz
thursday: art history test
tomorrow (friday): phys ed skill test; final day of lacrosse (yay, finally ;D)

next week: english epilogue, periodic table test (epic memorizing required), element presentation, french project due. pain in the balls,


everytime i think about the rest God gives me my mind always likes to flirt with Psalms 23.
"he makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul."

the whole chapter is very graceful and relaxing when i read it. my body tingles like my spirit is drinking cool fresh water, or perhaps taking a nice soothing dip. if you know me, you are probably aware that i dont sleep enough lol. i usually sleep 7 ish hours or less lol. and yet to me that is in itself an abundance. it is and always will be enough. especially how high school is going on and about these days. really eats up my physical body. when i wake up i feel my body is dead, and my mind and spirit are just on auto pilot doing all the work. interesting feeling to say the least.

anyway story 2 : i lost my bible again. whereabouts of it are currently unknown. pray that God does his mojo lol. ive been using biblegateway lol.


God's rest is good enough

filling the mold.

its been feeling a bit impossble, i won't even lie lol.

skimming over romans i found this. (again)

'when i want to do good, sin is right there with me'

funny how this is becoming more and more prevalent to me these days.


thats a wrap for this quickie blog.
g'nite

why do we show contempt,

i dunno, the subject was becoming more and more prevalent to me. after stopping my letter reading trek at colossians i did a quick speed through of romans again. just reading some highlighted passages over. and i came over this one.

"or do you show contempt for the riches of kindness, tolerance and patience not realizing that God's kindness leads you to repentance" romans 2:4

i personally am i a very convicted guy lol. God's riches are very effective in succumbing people like me. but then there are times where we dont care or forget about God offers us and what we are doing to ourselves. and by doing this we ignore the spiritual needs of ourselves!

sometimes i always wish that loving God more is the answer, but it simply seems much deeper than that.

D.E.A.R

D.E.A.R everyone >:O drop everything and read!

ahahah just kiiiddin. anyhoo just back from openning day at highschool and i found out that they have D.E.A.R! talk about reviving a dead trend eh? well anyhoo in those 20 minutes i R very determined to read my bible :D

yeah thats about all for today lol
g'mornin.

noideawhatthetitleshouldbe.ROMANS.fosho

edited out my usual stupid lines*


well not long ago i commenced my 'pauls letters'marathon LOL. -yay clapclap- just pretty much reading up all of the letters paul sent kickin it off in romans lol. this lil' project could take preeetty long to finish thinks t self*. well anyway finally wrapped up romans the other day.

regarding the overall theme of romans. what was purdy much happening here was that :

a) humans don't do anything right. in a nicer way, no one is righteous.
b) because of Jesus we can be freed of our sins
b2) resurrection - dying with sin and rebirth with a relationship with God
c) lol old ol' jews n' gentiles thing - value of circumcision - israel is still the one
d) if youre gonna do it do it right. live holy.

interesting because if you look at it in this perspective. i see a,b,c and d as remedies and with remedies you can always match them up with the problem lol. sort of odd but still.

in a) it could be a message to the gentiles with their foolish thinking and hard hearrts and all.

b)is about having hope. that you wont go to hell indefinately and that you have a choice. takin the slim road and living the way God wants you to. shedding off the old skin if you will.

c) very interesting considering im a noob in scripture talk. like UBER noob. well my best guess is that because gentiles received the grace from God. maybe the jews dont feel 'special' anymore? eh? in romans 2:25 it says that if you break the law it will become as though you are not circumcised so maybe this is a resaon for the jews to be disappointed? but then paul goes to tell them all that baptisism is like the circumcision of the heart by the Holy Spirit. he also says that being circumcised is also a way that God used to entrust the words of God himself. its sort of like pauls reassuring them LOL. but thats just me .... nuts i dont even know what im talking about for c) D:

d)as ken likes to say it : self explanatory. (he actually stole that line from me, from when he asked what a passage meant id say it was SE lol)


OMG I COULD TYPE FOR LIKE EVERRRR. i just had a dose of Jesus sorry o.o ... anyway


lots of great verses, too many ... tis like candy Jesus gave me and told me to share D:

first off ill start with 5:3-5 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. (just noticed that its one of karen's fave passages :D lol)

2nd. 6:16 Don't you know that when you offer yourselves to someone to obey him as slaves, you are slaves to the one whom you obey—whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?

lol i liked this passage cos it talked about simple it was to choose the right path. its like you wanna go to the hell or heaven o.o very clear cut. refreshing almost, like a good old scolding for sinning ... i like ... lol

3rd. 7:15-20 the crazy verse. simply said : when i want to do good evil is right there with me. and idk why but reading this wade me so ... emo again. eh been in the emo phase and still sorta in it. it just was like reading my own battles, the most frustrating fight of all. at the end paul says what a creep he and gives thanks to Jesus for pulling him outta the rut.

4th. 8:26 26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

lol for those prayer moments (heart emote fail, is it ctrl + 3?)

so sad ... and i havent even gotten to the destiny or the love verses D:
ehhh save em for later lol. well this is the end of my first grinding session/ hardcore bible blog session lol, 1 corthin is next up should be good. i feel a lots been learned & accomplished in this blog. took about 2 hrs 1 - 3am lol. still feel like i owe Jesus a couple in depth blogs for some verses in romans, do those later i guess.

g'nite and let God bless.

conviction and change

point of interest was when sam talked about conviction and change. true it is that conviction and change make up a good part of a christians life.

and yeah just really thought about it tonight and it struck me pretty hard. conviction was the easy part, change was the hard part. why? conviction in front of God is so simple. yes i did _________ i totally screwed up. but on earth even if we do make a mistake and are accused of it, we fight aganist the truth.

well whatever, the above is a flawed comparison, but that was the best i could make of it. sighs*

well anyway my struggles with change are just plain miserable. for a short time i do change but just return to my crappy own ways. then i remember my conviction and miserably try and fail. at this point, im pretty much like 'dammit you call this change?' then im pretty emo and angst ridden about it for the next day or two i know somethings missing but i havent really found that missing piece yet [not that im not looking o.o] (but at the back of my brain my holy spirit is like: you bloody git, how could you miss it, its so its something so elementary!)

it seems like im much more conflicted nowadays than back then. honestly i can't really tell if thats a good or bad thing or whether im facing more trials and temptations, yet what intel i can rely on that i'll be needing God more and more and i shouldnt ignore the One whom determines my fate.

shadows.

edit: funny cos i just thought about me dying and then being in front of God and the book of life after reading enochs blog. this random thought got more epic as i realized i was probably screwed. lets make that a definitely. it was quite disturbing.

i was always asked if i loved God. and i said yes. but i never really realized until now that if you did love God you would have the total holiness, be God-like thing down. you would have to be doing everything right. i wondered if i loved God enough or even at all. also disturbing.

i have lots more feelings to type down but im tai tired la. its 2am? LOL.
thinking about this really raised a new set of tough questions.

one revelation of many God will reveal.
talk about feeling insignifigant lols. coolios.
well g'nite y'all



the past.

i know i've sinned.
i know i've been forgiven.
but the guilt for my sin remains.
but how can i live with myself.
betraying he who loves me.
i have no excuses.
i can't just say im human and walk away.
im a child of God.
better things are expected of me.
i know that.
its time to walk into the Light.
the time is now.

lol just noticed these two posts were about turning things around. interesting lol.
this was just be being dumb and shooting out hopefully relevant feelings of mine.

may there be more added to this

all is not quiet.

lol stopped blogging for a while

well i guess its time to start up again. lol, since i stopped there have been just as many problems as before, reoccuring problems. one those types of problems you just put a band-aid on it and then just comes off. a temporary fix i guess you can call it.
started reading more often again, in joshua. joshua came right after the great moses, and good things were expected of him. one person once told me about joshua and it sparked a thought and brang me back to read it. in the first chapter the Lord tells joshua to be strong and courageous, many times. i think it was like 3-4 lol. he also tells him to be careful and obey what the Lord tells him to do. the Lord also reassures joshua that he will be rewarded and that the Lord will always be by his side.

awesome starting chapter lol.

i guess God always told me to like be strong, careful and obey him. i'd like to wager that he told me he'd be there to help me along too. i guess i've never really listened. i've had these times where i start something and really want to achieve it and no real harvest for me to reap? i guess i messed up, and tried to do something more but it never really worked out. i got reminded that if i loved God i'd be doing everything right. and i guess i didnt love God enough and thats why i failed. its like im joshua. im christian (leader of Gods people in joshs situatuion) and things are expected of me because im christian (i have to lead these people that moses just lead to conquer the rest of canaan etc)

in one of my early blogs i talked about dbz and doing things WITH God. how ironic it is to be stuck failing at what im preaching? ive hit bottom. totally cold. sad. how badly do i wanna of this rut. so bad.

i knew Jesus was with me the whole time i fell from grace. he didnt want to catch me at that moment for a reason. one day he'll tell me why. but he was there, always giving me a nudge, asking me when id get back with him. he wouldnt just let me forget about whats the true meaning behind my life. even though the roof, windows and walls were ripped off by the storm i still had the foundation. i know i can build it all back with him telling me how.


i guess ill end of by asking for prayer, sorry for the incoherent comeback blog lol.
well gnites

Stupidity.

editing*

some things aren't meant to be.

some things are never meant to be. it was something very hard to take and you won't truly grasp the subject unless you encounter it in person. there are things that as people we want. on the other hand theres God and what he wants. many times there is a point where theres something you want that God doesn't want you to have. and there it takes us to romans 9:16-18

¹⁶It does not, therefore, depend on man's desire or effort, but on God's mercy. ¹⁷For the Scripture says to Pharaoh: "I raised you up for this very purpose, that I might display my power in you and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth."^g]">[g] ¹⁸Therefore God has mercy on whom he wants to have mercy, and he hardens whom he wants to harden.

so i'd like to say there is a thing called destiny. except, when you choose to defy God's will. thats fine though because God always gets the job done, he just uses someone else. he always gets the job done one way or another.


g'nite laaaa

Supernatural Forces - The Screw It 'Tude.

so, operation : No Swears was effective today. funny how fast the operation crashed and burned. only around 3 hours into the thing i said shit, pretty sad. i know i can do better - and that's what God expects also. i recall psator tim saying how there are forces that would act upon you to stop you from doing God's will. during his sermon he said : 3hours from now remember this sermon and what i said and try to act upon it, you will find it won't be so easy - - - or something to that effect. and true enough, i find that pastor tim was indeed correct o.o - not that i ever doubted huim of course ;]


there are times where i just wanna say screw it and give in, and most of the time i do. it's the easiest choice every single time. but right now its when i'm thinking 'why can't i do this' and God is thinking the same thing. and thats when my mind tells me i should be able to fulfil what i said. something's up, and it's time to man up and get the job done right, the way God intended it to.


i'm going to lose someone soon, and i can't just say screw it.

Never Compromise

no swears for X amount of time possible.

allowed : crap, dumb, stupid.

i like challenging myself to be honest. to God this little test is a tiny speck of dust, but to me it seems quite immense. i wonder why, guess i'll always be wondering. another trial awaits after this one. to get to the next you have to pass this one. God's help will definately be needed in any case.

Hobey Ho & G'nite

It Don't Gimme No Satisfaction (Thanks For the Gifts)

well, report cards again. lol. ehhh, i did better this time around. way, way better than i even expected actually. well, lets just say i didn't get any satisfaction out of it. usually theres a hell load of hype, brag-fest, comparsions and crap like that, i dunno, but it seemed pretty transparent this term. im pleased by that. well, after school, me and a friend of mine went to pizza pizza at woodside square. picked up an XL french vanilla (LOL did i tell you i lost the roll up event 8 times in a row?) at tim hortons and got a 10 inch pizza. coincidentally a bunch of people from my school were at pizza pizza. damn were they loud, we overheard them spamming that they had 'promotion at risk'. i was grateful that God always provided for me. i guess that was something i overlooked most of the time. odd that i pray for that almost 90% of the time but i never seem to notice when he does guide me in real life. gotta keep my eye keen for that.



next step : learn what paul learned while in prison - learn to be content whatever the circumtances. to know what is to be in need, know what it is to have plenty, and how to be content in any and every situation whether living in plenty or in want.

philippians 4 : 11 - 12

guess i'll finish this blog off with a verse which is somewhat relevant?

You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever.
Psalm 30 : 11-12

g'nite folks

the Natural

so i guess i wanted to blog about this but never actually did. soooooo a month ago i was randomly flipping around in my bible to find a particular psalm (lack of biblegateway) and i came across this verse (or at part of it).

I desire to do your will, O my God - Psalm 40:8

in this verse i learned that you have to love God to truly serve him. even if you do his will without loving him you're just wasting your own time. i guessing thats difference between the crowd and christians. if the crowd goes to africa for a mission, i'd like to say that they are working in the shadow of God's will. what i mean by that is that they are doing a good thing which is 'worldly' if you will, which doesn't make it serving in God's eyes because that 'serving' is for the benefits of the world?


this verse also 'tells' me that serving God is natural. if you love God, you eventually serve. that's simply an inevitable process. here's a very crappy example :

in tennis muscling the ball (hitting the ball with only the arm) will not get you very far into the game. although you seem to be hitting hard because you're muscling, it isn't the full potencial of the shot.

so i've learned not to muscle the serving process, i'll be called, when i'm called.


pretty bad comeback blog, tons of mistakes, but aww wells

maybe i shoulda made an analogy about bleach/naruto so it'd be more comprehendable for jon and enoch >< we'll see

G'nites folks and have a good one

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distractions*

well, i havent blogged in a while. the main culprit? highschool. all this optional attendance feces and pressure has gotten through to me. props* satan you succeeded. i've paid my price i can tell you, straying from God is so easy, that you forget the consequences. the consequence was getting totally rejected from two highschools tha i had signed up for optional attendance. the way they reject you is really formal, and that just rocks my boat a lot.

its really interesting how you can just implement one thing ex. highschool and your mind twists it a billion different ways so you get even more things to worry about. just from highschool i got these of the top of my head :
- due dates for the optional attendance forms
- home school application forms
- whether to take applied french <--- no chance in hell
- if i would get accepted to my optional schools
- what if my friends got in but i didn't (which was pretty much what happened in real lol)
- does the school have a lot of gangstas
- what im gonna take for the next 4 years
- what job im gonna have

thats already 8 points right there, not mention the fact that each one of those could spawn a little subdivison. while were still on the topic of school and stuffs i'd like to bring up the two wisdoms. the godly and the ungodly. ungodly wisdom is like stuff you'd learn at school, the stuff that people tell you is vital to have a successful future. that 'wisdom' harbors bitterness, boasting, ambition and envy. that wisdom is useless, why? because it goes like this, you learn to get a good job, you get a good job to make more money. and we all know you can't serve God and money. emersing yourself too much in this such 'wisdom' isn't the best thing if you have the wrong intentions. i always try to remember this because i do 'nerd' a bit too much at times :D

that wisdom not only takes away from God but also the rest he gives us. like mass homeworking on sabbath day, or hmking when youre supposed to be having God-time.

well, thats a wrap
g'night y'all

What This World Needs - Casting Crowns.

interesting message proposed by Casting Crowns. in the song, it talks about moving your big arse over to simply let Jesus do the work. they say that non-christians aren't confused by the gospel. they are confused by christians. our ideas, our translations of the bible, our thoughts, our 'addiction' to the gospel. Jesus is the way to the Father and that we aren't the only way to Jesus. that we are slowing the down the process of saving more people.

im confused. in this blog, i post my ideas, my thoughts, everything about God. my opinions. so what im doing is wrong? have i confused anyone?

hope fully ill get a part 2 on this.

utilise the comments folks!

May The Force Be With You
G'nites

Simplicity.

so lately i've been quite vague with my prayers. usually my prayer would go something like this. this was from 1 week ago?

Dear Heavenly Father,

today's been quite hectic, please calm the seas of my mind. i got pissed a lot, done things you have always told me not to. forgive me. change the ways of my heart to your liking.

(time when i was reading psalms) Lord, use your power to heal those who hate, for they are hurting themselves. you are the only one who can help.

the wicked draw their swords and bend their bows,
to bring down the poor and weak,
to slay those whose ways are upright,
but their swords will pierce their own hearts and their bows will be broken.

psalms 37 : something to something : P its so good i meditated on it : D

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help ken to teach better, and stop those skits. clear the path for him.

Hear my words Father
In Jesus' name i pray
Amen

A shorter version:
Dear Heavenly Father,
please let the Holy Spirit run through me and take me over.

the short version i prayed with many more times than the first one. weird eh? One second i have this big complicated thing, the next second i have this prayer where im just simply asking to be godly. no reasons why. and no, its not because i have nothing else to pray for.


May The Force Be With You,
G'nites

Appreciation.

If I were to read any book over a million times in the OT right now it'd be Psalms. Its just so fascinating to see people writing about what great-awesome-wonderful-fantastic things God has done in their lives. Psalms offers so much wisdom and insight to me. I can't put it into words. Some Psalms that stand out to me are : (Book I)


Psalm 18

Psalm 20: 7-8

Psalm 23

Psalm 25: 1-3

Psalm 29: 3-9

Psalm 30

Psalm 37: 5-15

Pslam 40: 2



something has been bothering me lately, and i can't put my finger on it. I guess I'm not as ambitious about school as much as last year. Or maybe it was those Geography, French and English projects which were all due on the same week. Or the haircut I just got. Orrrrr I know my gift now but fail at using it. ORRRR maybe its a mix of this stuff, plus my busted computer. Ehhh I dunno.

Maybe its that Gavin was eating lots of my Pringles. I think he's trying to get fat. Or that Ming is dieting. <-- lol.

Good news folks! Just started playing tennis again. Indoors. I'm quite rusty. Gotta love butt kickin' eh?

note to self : nag to Michelle to finally start on science fair (3weeks)
topic : the effect of music on human behaviour.



G'nite ladies and gents!

Jesus

The Pharisees couldn't stand him

They found out they couldn't stop him

Pilate couldn't find any fault in him

Herod couldn't kill him

Death couldn't handle him

The grave couldn't hold him

That's my king!

Do you know him?