aganist all odds

so recently ive gotten gunned down a lot. my arms arent fairing very well in volleyball. lots of stupid kinks in my elbow and wrist this week. couldnt volley at all. then i had the most crappy arse math test ever lol~ had some serious remedial. its gonna scar me for a long while. considering math was one of my "assets", not anymore. recently it occured that ive looked on to the crap in my life that was happening and trying to stick bandages on them and not asking God for help. i openly admit i neglected God. i went from a high ish high to a low. just like the economy. when i was looking at the bad things i realized i wasn't perservering. i was hiding in a corner trying to recuperate myself aganist all the odds. i wasnt recuperating at all, i was angry, i was confused, i was scared the things i wouldnt show anyone never. except for God. he knew. he saw. he understood. he forgave. and for that i am grateful. it is also very interesting how easily i break when im being trialed. im so un godly it isnt even funny. just one of the many things i need to look into. hopefully i will survive the storm and reap the goods just like good ol' job did back in his day. pray for me faaaanks.


off a similar note im trying that God factor to school so now im doing school "with" God in a respect than to just solo through school like before. its not wisdom unless its the godly type.