untitled.

i just realized this will be my 20th post. well i realized i havent blogged in a looong time. i had a longing to return here and scrawl down all my thoughts and now finally i can.


the presence of God in my life is inconsistent i admit. sometimes i hold the sword of the spirit aganist temptations and other times i fight blindly with my own fists. but aganist anything ranging from temptations to evanglism i also try to remember that only christians have the power to persevre. when you perservre it is like fighting a war, you may lose battles but you still havent lost the whole war altogether. even though you've had some casualties at the mid point of the war, there is still a chance to win. what i mean by this is that even when you're fighting temptation and you're losing you still have a chance to find God once again and win. though if you do fall down you're gonna have to analyze what had gone wrong : did you not rely on God to fix things? did you give up because it seemed to difficult? fix it, keep on moving along



keep your eyes open
G'nite

rough rough rough round the edges

so ive been looking at the case of false teachers and was going to blog about my first in counter with a false teacher but its very hard for me to do. i have never touched the subject. not only that the guy i was gonna blog about had said a lot and had no justice in it. its an intricate matter. but why im blogging about this is that God told me to leave that for another day. he wanted me blog about something else thats happening in my life.


so you know me. i fight for what i believe in, try to get good grades you know normal stuff. but then theres conflict in every christian's walk. sometimes i feel im very far in the walk and sometimes i feel im justing starting out again. its frustrating sometimes, but then again i like challenges. if we were perfect what could we achieve? im a conflicted guy. when bad things happen i A) get angry B) get frustrated a whole lot (goes hand in hand with A) C) the worst: my mind goes totally blank and i look away from God and focus on the crap. A & B are fine but C is what disturbs me. everytime i get frustrated i always look at how to fix the problem quickly and efficiently without any help. its like an instinct. its not until hours or even days that i notice what ive done wrong. and me typing this blog right at this moment is a classic example. in enochs blog he says when we should be closer to God but instead we are farther than we should be.


my walk is complicated. when i first started off as i christian i was at the beginning of the bridge. i stayed at the beginning for a very long time. i guess during the years of 4 - 11 i took a few steps but not by much and then i stopped again. then i started to walk and walk and walk and i started to notice the bridge was getting narrower and narrower. then i fell off the bridge. i started back at the beginning. i struggled to get up. i started walking again i was back at the point where i had fallen. i took two steps and fell off again. sometimes i feel like i dont even make it back to the spot i had fallen to which makes me have the feeling to go back to the 'basics'. as i said earlier if you are being challenged you should feel some content and realize youre getting stronger from the experience even though you keep messing up, if you try you will come through. perserverance will make you whole and lacking in zilch.


G'nites by the way i wouldnt mind hearing some of your walks ;D

aganist all odds

so recently ive gotten gunned down a lot. my arms arent fairing very well in volleyball. lots of stupid kinks in my elbow and wrist this week. couldnt volley at all. then i had the most crappy arse math test ever lol~ had some serious remedial. its gonna scar me for a long while. considering math was one of my "assets", not anymore. recently it occured that ive looked on to the crap in my life that was happening and trying to stick bandages on them and not asking God for help. i openly admit i neglected God. i went from a high ish high to a low. just like the economy. when i was looking at the bad things i realized i wasn't perservering. i was hiding in a corner trying to recuperate myself aganist all the odds. i wasnt recuperating at all, i was angry, i was confused, i was scared the things i wouldnt show anyone never. except for God. he knew. he saw. he understood. he forgave. and for that i am grateful. it is also very interesting how easily i break when im being trialed. im so un godly it isnt even funny. just one of the many things i need to look into. hopefully i will survive the storm and reap the goods just like good ol' job did back in his day. pray for me faaaanks.


off a similar note im trying that God factor to school so now im doing school "with" God in a respect than to just solo through school like before. its not wisdom unless its the godly type.

Gifts and Faith

the thing i concluded the past few days was that the ones with the strongest faith had the most gifts. as you can see Jesus on earth had the best- est faith you could possibly have. so he obviously had the most guns. he could move mountains and do it all. i have also found that the disciples had even greater faith after Jesus had died and ressurected and then left for heaven. then again i wouldnt know why their faith would be weak because after witnessing all those miracles it cant be "coincidence" anymore it happens because someone did it. it just wanted to get this out to you all. annnnd make sure your faith is accompanied by faith or else it just useless poo.

sidenotes
- dragonball is wayyy popular
-theirs a movie coming out about it.

G'nite guys n' gals

Spiritual Gifts

Christians all have different gifts that God gave them but we all share a common spirit, the Holy Spirit. In the body of Christ we have a common goal that unites us, yet we are all different because we all attend to the same thing. We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. Romans 12: 6 some gifts i can name are : prophesizing, healing, evagelism are ones i can list off the top of my head.

heres a perfect analogy from 1 corinthians 12: 14 - 27 its a bit longish : 14Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. 15If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.
21The eye cannot say to the hand, "I don't need you!" And the head cannot say to the feet, "I don't need you!" 22On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.
27Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it (boom) it is long as i said.

i myself have not identified my spiritual gift yet. please pray for me and those you know in this situation fanks. very soon ill be covering what gifts God gave to his disciples ;D an interesting topic no doubt.

G'nite.

Burn Brighter.

so sometime ago, one of my friends at school (whos aethist, pardon the crappy spelling) told me that i talked about christian stuff a lot more outside of church than she'd seen other christians before. so as you can probably guess i was sad that other christians werent as outreaching but on the other hand i was content with the fact that i had grown. i used to have trouble telling others about my christian life or sharing the gospel.

we as christians are like a bonfire. if we retain ourselves so that we dont burn up more stuff and grow, we either stay the same or we get weaker. so thats like us. we keep our Holy Spirit at church, we keep everything God related in church. the thing is we cant grow like that. we could never grow like that. once we step outside we apply what we God teaches us with the world around us and that is how we grow. we will inevitably fail but we should learn from our failures and keeping walking forward.

sidenotes
- dragonball seems popular nowadays
- i like analogies


G'NITE PEOPLE.

shoulda laid this down earlier.

Christ is not honored by celebrating Halloween. Replace the celebration of Halloween with something completely unassociated to it. You can make it a family night and do something special together, the PRINCIPLE OF REPLACEMENT. Romans 12:21 teaches "Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good."
Certainly remove the bad. Explain to your children why you are not celebrating Halloween any more. BUT then replace it with something that will glorify God (I Corinthians 10:31). Be creative. Make what you do more fun, yet honor Christ. Have a harvest party where you focus on Christ the creator and his provisions for you. Have a Christian video party. Have a glory gathering where Christian songs are sung and the word is preached. Get a group together and go from door to door and pass out Gospel tracts then meet for a time of fellowship afterward.
Prayerfully consider what Christ would have you to do. May your desire be that of James, "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you." (James 4:7-8).

no claims on the above. annnnnd no names as usual. as the title says i wish i had posted this a couple days ago. or maybe even a week. as this pargraph says we shouldnt rejoice in Satan's wickedness we should overcome the Devil with goodness and righteousness, something that would glorify the name of God.


anyway on the a similar note. i had my own battles to face. my fight with Satan was still on halloween and it was inevitable as joanie had said yesterday at sevenup. the 31st was eventful, the dance was on that day. my job in the sac. that day was to help setup and do other random jobs. we had a classroom party which was ho lame ah. then later the dance rolled along. the dance was more or less atrocious. girl with girl slow dancing and four people dancing like what the frig? i sorta have the idea that it wasnt meant to be that way or maybe im aganist homosexuals? anyhoo it was pretty bad. i felt so disconnected from God. my Holy Spirit waivered. it was a horrifying experience for sure. but i felt disconnected in a way that i did not know i was sinning. in other words i was running around like a mole, but with none of its other senses. i was blind. was this what hell is like? because it seemed pretty ugly.


all in all a deft experience. g'nite for there is church tommorow