quickie. (HAHA not really)

so today i was watching a film about the inhumane slaughtering of cows and terrible our food industry is. yes quite random ... well anyway. the mood of the class was dare i say it, dark. its as if they never knew things like this happened in real life.

in their own life.

in this film it talked about how the food industry cast a large curtain. and behind this curtain held many deep secrets. inhumane ways of slaughtering animals, what goes into the food, jacking mexicans to work in processing plants, etc etc. lol.
it also noted junk food is becoming cheaper than normal people food like cabbage etc.

while i was walking home it just so happened that my ipod ran out of juice.
good time to pray and reflect on the film? yeeup.

when i thought about it i realized that we are the ones putting up the curtain in our spiritual war. we dont like to see the ugly things. thinking back on that thought.
is that why non christians dont want to be saved? are they scared of the truth?
are they scared of the curtain being lifted?

in my own life i know i put up that curtain every once in a while. loving God is hard for me. sometimes un-natural. God wants to spend time with me and i know that. sometimes my brain tells me it wants a break from everything, even God. but having a relationship with God, well, time must be spent. its a responsibility that every christian has to accept along with many, many others. then there are the responsibilities of the world. school, fam. work. to name a few. those can be done and finished, but with God its a forever commitment. it feels like my brain just can't make that huge leap. but when im in tune with God and i feel physically exhausted and totally depleted, God's spirit fuels me like he is right now (1:30AM just finished shakespeare hw FTW)and that feeling is like no other. it gives me a motivation. what i live for! i live for his love. without it, what and who am i?


time, time, time. something humans cherish just as much as money.


lol this has been a really personal blog i apologize with a lot of rambles and shambles here and there. i blame the long time blog (:


G'night have a nice one ;D
pray that God gives me some boosta juice tmrw morning.